If you don't,
my father said,
you better learn
to eat soup
through a straw,
'cause I'm gonna
break your jaw
Martin Espada
SOCIALIZATION
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Chekgu praktikum
when i were a lad...
hell yeah!! super liking chekgu praktikum! chekgu pompuan la. muahaha. why? because.. they were so kind and nice to me! aww... can u imagine?
kay. just want to share, something that i remember. my most favourite chekgu praktikum of all - Cikgu Masyitah. she was from Gelang Patah, Johor. from day 1, i tried to avoid talking to her. no communication, no interaction. why? because i liked her! that's me. if i like someone, i'll keep it to myself, and try not to let the person know bout it. ^^"
yet there's a twist. she noticed that i was being quiet and shy and little. so she approached me and..
"Hi. Nama cikgu, Masyitah. nama adik?"
adik?? wheee!! XD only my mama and sis addressed me as 'adik'. that was sooo the 1st time i was called such kata ganti nama outside my family.
(super shy) "nama saya.. azhan.. azhan zaffuan"
"azhan zaffuan? sedapnye name! 1st time cikgu dengar."
hahahaha... an an.. and it happened that she came to class the next day, and after her teaching (she taught Bahasa Melayu that time) she called me and
"haa..ni cikgu bawak bekal dari rumah. Aan dah makan? jom makan dengan cikgu kat kantin"
"terima kaseh, cikgu masy."
"em, panggil cikgu, Cikgu Ita. Aan kene panggil cikgu Ita, sebab aan cute." (senyum~)
bwahahaha. hey! just nak bagitau. all the lines are/were the exact lines. no alterations. i carved it in my mind, and heart - coz it's sooo meaningful. ^^
and yes, none of my friends or other pupils called her Cikgu Ita. only me. damn i just couldn't see how special i was to her eyes. =D
ustazah once asked me to participate in story telling competition. i refused. then she forced me. i refused. but there's Cikgu Ita, she pujuk me nicely and sisterly, she convinced me to take part, and she promised to support me in every direction.
there you go. 2-time champion, zone and district level. 1st runner up, state level. =D
an an...ngengade ko dulu ye. manja...gedik.. attention seeker... XD
aaa..the most unhappy moment... the departing moment. as usual, a chekgu praktikum stays at school for only a few months. 3 i would say. so the final day of her presence in my school... i cried n cried n cried...till my eyes bengkak. she did, as well.
she received so many gifts and presents. all nicely wrapped and seemed expensive. yeah, i couldn't afford such. but i wanted to give her something. so when everybody was busy salam-ing her, saying goodbye and bla bla bla.. i stayed back in class, alone, and i wrote and drew something in my exercise book...
when she was about to leave (she was at the main gate..heading out already), i showed up and shouted "cikgu Ita!"
damn i was too loud. and it was a drama. she stopped walking. people stopped talking. no noise no voice. she looked at me, and senyum paksa (i noticed that). she came to me, asked me where i had been all the while as she was looking for me to say goodbye and farewell.
tears overflowing, i handed her my exercise book. i showed her the doodle and i told her that i wanted to give her a better present but i can't afford it. i wasn't sure what happened, but i remember she knelled in tears, and she hugged me tight.
and then i heard my friends cried louder and louder. i saw my other teachers shed their tears too. ha..this part, i couldn't recall the things she pesan to me. coz i wasn't listening..hehehe... em, i guess i should stop narrating here. the rest of the day was not really worth to mention. =D
so that's the story of my most beloved chekgu praktikum.. ^^ aww c'mon.. i was in darjah 3 la that time~ ^^
hell yeah!! super liking chekgu praktikum! chekgu pompuan la. muahaha. why? because.. they were so kind and nice to me! aww... can u imagine?
kay. just want to share, something that i remember. my most favourite chekgu praktikum of all - Cikgu Masyitah. she was from Gelang Patah, Johor. from day 1, i tried to avoid talking to her. no communication, no interaction. why? because i liked her! that's me. if i like someone, i'll keep it to myself, and try not to let the person know bout it. ^^"
yet there's a twist. she noticed that i was being quiet and shy and little. so she approached me and..
"Hi. Nama cikgu, Masyitah. nama adik?"
adik?? wheee!! XD only my mama and sis addressed me as 'adik'. that was sooo the 1st time i was called such kata ganti nama outside my family.
(super shy) "nama saya.. azhan.. azhan zaffuan"
"azhan zaffuan? sedapnye name! 1st time cikgu dengar."
hahahaha... an an.. and it happened that she came to class the next day, and after her teaching (she taught Bahasa Melayu that time) she called me and
"haa..ni cikgu bawak bekal dari rumah. Aan dah makan? jom makan dengan cikgu kat kantin"
"terima kaseh, cikgu masy."
"em, panggil cikgu, Cikgu Ita. Aan kene panggil cikgu Ita, sebab aan cute." (senyum~)
bwahahaha. hey! just nak bagitau. all the lines are/were the exact lines. no alterations. i carved it in my mind, and heart - coz it's sooo meaningful. ^^
and yes, none of my friends or other pupils called her Cikgu Ita. only me. damn i just couldn't see how special i was to her eyes. =D
ustazah once asked me to participate in story telling competition. i refused. then she forced me. i refused. but there's Cikgu Ita, she pujuk me nicely and sisterly, she convinced me to take part, and she promised to support me in every direction.
there you go. 2-time champion, zone and district level. 1st runner up, state level. =D
an an...ngengade ko dulu ye. manja...gedik.. attention seeker... XD
aaa..the most unhappy moment... the departing moment. as usual, a chekgu praktikum stays at school for only a few months. 3 i would say. so the final day of her presence in my school... i cried n cried n cried...till my eyes bengkak. she did, as well.
she received so many gifts and presents. all nicely wrapped and seemed expensive. yeah, i couldn't afford such. but i wanted to give her something. so when everybody was busy salam-ing her, saying goodbye and bla bla bla.. i stayed back in class, alone, and i wrote and drew something in my exercise book...
when she was about to leave (she was at the main gate..heading out already), i showed up and shouted "cikgu Ita!"
damn i was too loud. and it was a drama. she stopped walking. people stopped talking. no noise no voice. she looked at me, and senyum paksa (i noticed that). she came to me, asked me where i had been all the while as she was looking for me to say goodbye and farewell.
tears overflowing, i handed her my exercise book. i showed her the doodle and i told her that i wanted to give her a better present but i can't afford it. i wasn't sure what happened, but i remember she knelled in tears, and she hugged me tight.
and then i heard my friends cried louder and louder. i saw my other teachers shed their tears too. ha..this part, i couldn't recall the things she pesan to me. coz i wasn't listening..hehehe... em, i guess i should stop narrating here. the rest of the day was not really worth to mention. =D
so that's the story of my most beloved chekgu praktikum.. ^^ aww c'mon.. i was in darjah 3 la that time~ ^^
Monday, January 24, 2011
Rumah
rumah aku banyak kali gak la mengalami revolusi dan pengubahsuaian. 2 kali. hahahaha. seingat aku la..sejak aku lahir, rumah tu transform dari rumah wholly papan, kayu.. menjadik half batu n half kayu.
dulu, masa zaman2 rumah kayu..aku kecik lagi. masa tu ada beranda! syok gila layan angin time lepak2 kat situ. tak kira la siang ka, malam ka..hehe.. situ jugak la tempat kucing2 aku dulu suka menempek. sejuk kot.hee..
masa tu jalan depan rumah masih jalan tanah merah.. jalan macam tali air tu, tapi kecik je la. memang tanah merah dari pekan tanjung piandang sampai la masuk kampung aku. kalo time musim panas...berdebu habis rumah! memang tingkap nako tu hari2 kena lap... kalo biar je debu dok bertimbun tu..alamatnya.. sekarang aku ada asmawaty dah. haha. asma la. ^^
transformasi pertama - jadikkan umah tu half kayu and half batu. opkos, 2 tingkat. ground floornye batu...tingkat atas papan. em, aku tak berapa berkenan design and blue-print rumah tu sebenarnya. tapi sebabkan aku kecik lagi time tu... dan cubaan aku untuk menyuarakan pendapat mentah ni dibentes keras oleh mama yang mengajar aku erti "orang tua2 buat kerja jangan menyampuk", maka aku wat dono je la..huhu.
tepi rumah ada pokok jambu tau. bukan jambu air or madu yg macam loceng tu. tak. ni jambu hutan. rasa dia macam jambu batu, guava tu. tapi ni versi kecik. sedap siot! aku selalu panjat pokok tu, petik jambu. takpon, kait dengan galah. tak pon..tuju dengan sliper or lastik je jambu sampai jatuh. aku tere ooo!! hehe..
tepi rumah tu, bawah pokok jambu ada tanah lapang sikit. tak luas pon.. tapi yang bestnya, situ la tempat aku main gasing..main guli.. main masak2, kawen2.. XD apa lagi..em... ha! main aci ligan, tuju kasut... main badminton pon kat situ! sebab tu la aku tere tuju kasut... sebab selalu tuju bulu tangkis yg sangkut kt celah2 ranting pokok jambu tu. ^^
penjuru depan rumah..depan sikit ja dari pokok jambu tu, ada pokok pelam. pokok tu berapa kali dah kena tebang aku pon tak ingat..tapi yang pasti, sampai aku besaq, pokok tu selalu ada buah. manis! sebabnya? ada kerengga. hee...itu, aku tak panjat. serik. pernah kena tambat dengan abah kat pokok tu sebab jahat sangat. so kerengga2 tu pon seronok kan main la gigit2 aku. hee..lg pon aku kannya suka sangat pelam. jambu tu je pengubat lara..heh
jaoh lak aku melalut. padahal nak cakap pasal rumah. hm..^^ ha! satu lagi benda best pasal rumah aku. dulu sebelom akak kawen tingkat atas rumah tu ada 2 bilik je. satu bilik mama (aku tido dengan mama), satu lagi bilik abah. sebabkan akak nak kawen, abah pasang dinding baru kat ruang legar tingkat tu, so jadi la satu bilek lagi~..
bilek tu tingkap dia mengadap jalan tau. yang bestnya, tingkap bilek tu betul2 atas awning depan rumah. so favourite aku plak... suka lepak atas awning tu! =D balek sekolah je, agak2 petang2 sekt, musti aku lepak dok atas bumbung rumah, or at least atas awning tu..sambil memerhati pemandangan, dan orang lalu lalang. syok oo!!
kalo malam..aku suka lepak atas bumbung or bumbung awning tu...baring2...tengok bintang. kadang2 mama masuk bilek, tanya la aku dok buat apa. masa tu hepi sangat.. sebab aku banyak cerita macam2 kat mama time2 mcm tu. haha. oh ya, awning tu kemek2, remuk, sebab aku bukan je duduk lepak diam2 ye.. aku jugak siap berlari2 kejar kucing, and musang atas bumbung rumah. XD
woh!! rindu siot!!!
dulu, masa zaman2 rumah kayu..aku kecik lagi. masa tu ada beranda! syok gila layan angin time lepak2 kat situ. tak kira la siang ka, malam ka..hehe.. situ jugak la tempat kucing2 aku dulu suka menempek. sejuk kot.hee..
masa tu jalan depan rumah masih jalan tanah merah.. jalan macam tali air tu, tapi kecik je la. memang tanah merah dari pekan tanjung piandang sampai la masuk kampung aku. kalo time musim panas...berdebu habis rumah! memang tingkap nako tu hari2 kena lap... kalo biar je debu dok bertimbun tu..alamatnya.. sekarang aku ada asmawaty dah. haha. asma la. ^^
transformasi pertama - jadikkan umah tu half kayu and half batu. opkos, 2 tingkat. ground floornye batu...tingkat atas papan. em, aku tak berapa berkenan design and blue-print rumah tu sebenarnya. tapi sebabkan aku kecik lagi time tu... dan cubaan aku untuk menyuarakan pendapat mentah ni dibentes keras oleh mama yang mengajar aku erti "orang tua2 buat kerja jangan menyampuk", maka aku wat dono je la..huhu.
tepi rumah ada pokok jambu tau. bukan jambu air or madu yg macam loceng tu. tak. ni jambu hutan. rasa dia macam jambu batu, guava tu. tapi ni versi kecik. sedap siot! aku selalu panjat pokok tu, petik jambu. takpon, kait dengan galah. tak pon..tuju dengan sliper or lastik je jambu sampai jatuh. aku tere ooo!! hehe..
tepi rumah tu, bawah pokok jambu ada tanah lapang sikit. tak luas pon.. tapi yang bestnya, situ la tempat aku main gasing..main guli.. main masak2, kawen2.. XD apa lagi..em... ha! main aci ligan, tuju kasut... main badminton pon kat situ! sebab tu la aku tere tuju kasut... sebab selalu tuju bulu tangkis yg sangkut kt celah2 ranting pokok jambu tu. ^^
penjuru depan rumah..depan sikit ja dari pokok jambu tu, ada pokok pelam. pokok tu berapa kali dah kena tebang aku pon tak ingat..tapi yang pasti, sampai aku besaq, pokok tu selalu ada buah. manis! sebabnya? ada kerengga. hee...itu, aku tak panjat. serik. pernah kena tambat dengan abah kat pokok tu sebab jahat sangat. so kerengga2 tu pon seronok kan main la gigit2 aku. hee..lg pon aku kannya suka sangat pelam. jambu tu je pengubat lara..heh
jaoh lak aku melalut. padahal nak cakap pasal rumah. hm..^^ ha! satu lagi benda best pasal rumah aku. dulu sebelom akak kawen tingkat atas rumah tu ada 2 bilik je. satu bilik mama (aku tido dengan mama), satu lagi bilik abah. sebabkan akak nak kawen, abah pasang dinding baru kat ruang legar tingkat tu, so jadi la satu bilek lagi~..
bilek tu tingkap dia mengadap jalan tau. yang bestnya, tingkap bilek tu betul2 atas awning depan rumah. so favourite aku plak... suka lepak atas awning tu! =D balek sekolah je, agak2 petang2 sekt, musti aku lepak dok atas bumbung rumah, or at least atas awning tu..sambil memerhati pemandangan, dan orang lalu lalang. syok oo!!
kalo malam..aku suka lepak atas bumbung or bumbung awning tu...baring2...tengok bintang. kadang2 mama masuk bilek, tanya la aku dok buat apa. masa tu hepi sangat.. sebab aku banyak cerita macam2 kat mama time2 mcm tu. haha. oh ya, awning tu kemek2, remuk, sebab aku bukan je duduk lepak diam2 ye.. aku jugak siap berlari2 kejar kucing, and musang atas bumbung rumah. XD
woh!! rindu siot!!!
Wow factor
the other day Mr. Victor from UUM came to see us. his intention was to give a 2-hour talk about life, changes and innovation . unfortunately, due to time restriction, the supposedly 2-hour session was cut short, with only 45 minutes remained on the clock.
never mind, he said. this is somewhat we call 'a change in plan'. so in order to allow us absorbing the juicy gist of the speech, he had to make some adjustments, hither and thither.
rite. clear.
at one point he asked us about our understanding, our perception and perspective of the word "change".
it is so not me to raise a hand and answer a question or share a thought. but that morning i became the "not me" me. and i told him and everybody about my point of view.
it's a "wow" factor. changes are the things that make you realize something like "ouh, really?", "hey, i didn't know that", or simply.. "wow.."
it's like a turning point. only that you don't have to turn if it's not for you to look over your shoulder, hold your breath for a few seconds, feel your heart stops beating, and come to your conscience that you have done something that need to alter or delete or whatever to make your future steps solid, valid, and full of confidence.
and then he came up with the term "innovation", which, as he explained enthusiastically, is interchangeable with "change".
haha. i don't think i'll say it all here. but in my words..
innovation = create
change = make use
pretty confusing, eh? not really. you just need to ensure your conscience is working properly. then only you can.. em.. learn, unlearn, relearn. =)
never mind, he said. this is somewhat we call 'a change in plan'. so in order to allow us absorbing the juicy gist of the speech, he had to make some adjustments, hither and thither.
rite. clear.
at one point he asked us about our understanding, our perception and perspective of the word "change".
it is so not me to raise a hand and answer a question or share a thought. but that morning i became the "not me" me. and i told him and everybody about my point of view.
it's a "wow" factor. changes are the things that make you realize something like "ouh, really?", "hey, i didn't know that", or simply.. "wow.."
it's like a turning point. only that you don't have to turn if it's not for you to look over your shoulder, hold your breath for a few seconds, feel your heart stops beating, and come to your conscience that you have done something that need to alter or delete or whatever to make your future steps solid, valid, and full of confidence.
and then he came up with the term "innovation", which, as he explained enthusiastically, is interchangeable with "change".
haha. i don't think i'll say it all here. but in my words..
innovation = create
change = make use
pretty confusing, eh? not really. you just need to ensure your conscience is working properly. then only you can.. em.. learn, unlearn, relearn. =)
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
WCC wacaca~
today somebody from the past had visited us. after 5 long years... these people seem to have the ability to smell our presence. that's right. none other than WCC fellas.
what is WCC? 1st it's an acronym of Women Crisis Center. but since the word crisis seemed to rain them with tonnes of troubles yet less believers, they had changed it to Women Center for Change. an indication that name does matter.
and today we talked about sexual abuse among children. yeap. it was a two and a half hour talk. well not just plain talking. there were videos and song and lotsa things related to the topic. not to mention flyers.
im not gonna discuss the content of this talk. but something struck my mind about it. how noble these people - they go around the Earth, gather boys and girls and people of all ages, spreading the awareness of the rights and wrongs, with intention of educating the society, about what's happening and what not.
i wonder... is this their permanent job? i mean, something they do for living. who pays their salary? do they even have income? monthly? ok. the president has honorary doctorate. is it medical doctorate, or philosophical doc? and how the heck that she can and still remember us, after so many years had passed since our very last meeting??
ok. that was the side dish. my main menu is... i feel grateful. that today we still have these kind of people who voluntarily and tirelessly educating people within their reach about women, children, issues and how-you-can-help-us-save-the-world slogans.
now i feel tired and i feel like i have not really the point that i want to talk here. perhaps...i'll edit this post. somehow rather..i should let you laugh upon reading this... because all i wanted to say here is... that i'm sleepy and im having a terrible headache now.
so..if i may be excused.. =) sorry to waste your time. ^^ laters!
what is WCC? 1st it's an acronym of Women Crisis Center. but since the word crisis seemed to rain them with tonnes of troubles yet less believers, they had changed it to Women Center for Change. an indication that name does matter.
and today we talked about sexual abuse among children. yeap. it was a two and a half hour talk. well not just plain talking. there were videos and song and lotsa things related to the topic. not to mention flyers.
im not gonna discuss the content of this talk. but something struck my mind about it. how noble these people - they go around the Earth, gather boys and girls and people of all ages, spreading the awareness of the rights and wrongs, with intention of educating the society, about what's happening and what not.
i wonder... is this their permanent job? i mean, something they do for living. who pays their salary? do they even have income? monthly? ok. the president has honorary doctorate. is it medical doctorate, or philosophical doc? and how the heck that she can and still remember us, after so many years had passed since our very last meeting??
ok. that was the side dish. my main menu is... i feel grateful. that today we still have these kind of people who voluntarily and tirelessly educating people within their reach about women, children, issues and how-you-can-help-us-save-the-world slogans.
now i feel tired and i feel like i have not really the point that i want to talk here. perhaps...i'll edit this post. somehow rather..i should let you laugh upon reading this... because all i wanted to say here is... that i'm sleepy and im having a terrible headache now.
so..if i may be excused.. =) sorry to waste your time. ^^ laters!
Monday, January 17, 2011
10 lines of frustrated teachers
just think about it... you'll get the gist. =)
"Well let me get this thing quite clear. Your daughter is a pain in the as$"
"Yes you're right. We teach for money. So pay your goddamn fees etcetera a.s.a.p"
"As long as we teachers give tests, there will always be prayers in schools. Been there"
"The 2 rules of Judo training: 1) the teacher is always right and 2) when you think the teacher is wrong, refer to rule one."
"Sex education may be a good idea in the schools, but I don't believe the kids should be given homework." - Bill Cosby
"If you think education is expensive, try ignorance!"
"All that education, but you can't remember my name?"
"Remember in elementary school you were told that in case of fire you have to line up quietly in a single file from smallest to tallest? What is the logic in that? What, do tall people burn slower?" - Warren Hutcherson
"Rodney Dangerfield says, in the school he went to, they asked a kid to prove the law of gravity and he threw the teacher out of the window. Well I heard you guys can defy gravity."
"A man who has never gone to school may steal from a freight car, but if he has a university education he may steal the whole railroad." - Franklin Delano Roosevelt
"Well let me get this thing quite clear. Your daughter is a pain in the as$"
"Yes you're right. We teach for money. So pay your goddamn fees etcetera a.s.a.p"
"As long as we teachers give tests, there will always be prayers in schools. Been there"
"The 2 rules of Judo training: 1) the teacher is always right and 2) when you think the teacher is wrong, refer to rule one."
"Sex education may be a good idea in the schools, but I don't believe the kids should be given homework." - Bill Cosby
"If you think education is expensive, try ignorance!"
"All that education, but you can't remember my name?"
"Remember in elementary school you were told that in case of fire you have to line up quietly in a single file from smallest to tallest? What is the logic in that? What, do tall people burn slower?" - Warren Hutcherson
"Rodney Dangerfield says, in the school he went to, they asked a kid to prove the law of gravity and he threw the teacher out of the window. Well I heard you guys can defy gravity."
"A man who has never gone to school may steal from a freight car, but if he has a university education he may steal the whole railroad." - Franklin Delano Roosevelt
Friday, January 14, 2011
Countdown
yes. it has started. today. to? 14th Feb 2011.
what's so big about 14/2/11? ouh! is it because of valentine's day? naa... that's nothing, though. huhu...
geez.. am i prepared for this? i mean... well prepared? mentally..physically.. financially.. Lols.
man...lotsa things goin on in my mind... what should i wear on the 1st day? how should i look? what to bring? how shall i greet the kids? will they behave? or will they "gotcha" me? bla bla bla... @_@"
i should say less. expect less. let it be a surprise, i'd say. ^^
phew... the countdown..begins.. =D
what's so big about 14/2/11? ouh! is it because of valentine's day? naa... that's nothing, though. huhu...
geez.. am i prepared for this? i mean... well prepared? mentally..physically.. financially.. Lols.
man...lotsa things goin on in my mind... what should i wear on the 1st day? how should i look? what to bring? how shall i greet the kids? will they behave? or will they "gotcha" me? bla bla bla... @_@"
i should say less. expect less. let it be a surprise, i'd say. ^^
phew... the countdown..begins.. =D
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Time
for God sake i couldnt get my time managed well! someone even asked me, "dude, when are you goin to post something new on your blog"..and "bro, share more. tell us more. i love reading your entries." and such.
1st of all i would like to thank all the readers for keeping up with me. i really appreciate your time spent on reading my nothing-much-just-some-thought-and-feeling entries here. i really do.
thanks for your personal requests.. of wanting to read more on what i have in store to share. yes i do have boxes of truth, mountains of thoughts, and a universe of stories to serve your heart and mind. and eyes. =)
thus, i give you my words... i'll try my best to keep this page updated... like the old times. ^^ wish me luck! sorry for inconveniences and thankies in advance ^^
miss y'all
1st of all i would like to thank all the readers for keeping up with me. i really appreciate your time spent on reading my nothing-much-just-some-thought-and-feeling entries here. i really do.
thanks for your personal requests.. of wanting to read more on what i have in store to share. yes i do have boxes of truth, mountains of thoughts, and a universe of stories to serve your heart and mind. and eyes. =)
thus, i give you my words... i'll try my best to keep this page updated... like the old times. ^^ wish me luck! sorry for inconveniences and thankies in advance ^^
miss y'all
Sunday, January 2, 2011
New Year 2011
yeap! it's here. the most awaited year since 2004. why? haha. take it easy, dude. i'll keep ya updated ^^
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