Ramadhan: Day 28 - Last Night of Ramadhan

tonight...

i performed the last 'teraweh' for this ramadhan.

sad. i feel sad.

why?

too many things...

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what if..

tonight's the last night i could perform teraweh?

tomorrow's really the last day of fasting for me?

what if..

this is the last Ramadhan for me to celebrate..

the coming raya ... is the last one for me to cheer..

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have i done enough deeds?

have i done enough prayers?

am i really forgiven?

by them and others?

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dear God, Most Merciful, Most Gracious.

i am nothing but my all - thanking You...

for all the goodness and Your blessings; i could give none in return compared to everything You have given me all along..

thank You, Allah.

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dear God..

You know..how hard i've been praying for them, ayte?

You know... how much i love them.. You do know, how much i miss them...

so Lord, please..

please...

keep them in Your love. keep them safe in a good place... the place of all the good men and all the loved ones of Yours.

is it too much?.. sorry.. can't help it.

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mama... abah...

kengkawan adik semua seronok, mama... semua hepi, abah... sebab dapat beraya kat rumah, kat kampung... dengan mak ayah dorang..

ok.. ada kawan2 adik yang terpaksa dok jauh...beraya kat perantauan... beraya tanpa keluarga kat sisi...

tapi...

dorang still boleh webcam dengan adik beradik dorang..

dorang still boleh hantar kad raya balek rumah... terima kad raya dari rumah...

dorang still boleh... call mak ayah dorang...

dengar suara mak ayah dorang...kan?

tak macam adik.......

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mama

adik rindu mama...

adik rindu nak anyam ketupat dengan mama...

adik rindu nak bakaq bahulu dengan mama...

adik rindu nak buat kek, buat kuih raya...masak rendang... dengan mama.

adik rindu...nak dengar suara mama...

adik rindu nak peluk mama... nak salam mama... nak cium pipi mama....

adik rindu mama sangat2~


abah...

adik rindu abah...

adik rindu nasi himpit yang abah buat...

adik rindu pasang pelita dengan abah...

adik rindu kena marah dengan abah... kena beletiaq dengan abah...

adik rindu ... nak dengar suara abah...

adik rindu nak peluk abah... nak salam abah...cium dahi abah...

adik rindu abah...

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semoga...mama dan abah... tenang di sana.


selamat hari raya

mama, abah.